2004-10-07 - 1:43 a.m.
wanna know somethin dorky?
ok.. a while ago.. you and i had a conversation and somewhere in that conversation you told me that I needed to grow up.
Coming from anybody else I think I would have disregarded it and pretended to be offended *yessss immature.. i'm aware*
it's odd though.. how after i while i started to notice it.. the whole needed to grow up part..
I can't say i spent time wokring on it..working on me..
buutt.. I like to think i'm doing better.
LOL. My first order of buisness was sending my mom a four page letter front and back telling her I love her.. but don't want her in my life anymore.. It helped.. kinda like.. letting go...
then from that point I just kinda.. eased up on everything
*shurgs*
I guessssss my point is to say thank you..
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As touched as i was that words like that could even be produced by myself, I was unhappy to hear the dishonesty behind them. Though Some of it is true. I conviently disincluded things that are happening as of late. Though I tried to get her out of my life, she constantly calls and tells me how much she loves me and misses me and wants me back in her life because I helped her go on. People push me away now, because I don't run to them.. Because I try to distance myself.. *shrugs* No one wins I suppose
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