2004-11-01 - 11:10 p.m.
Du du duuuu. Thoughts thoughts thoughts. Things things things things. Sooo much to think about, and so many things to write about.
No relevence whatsoever to anything that is going on. It's interesting how much people you think you know can surprise you. No matter how much you think you know, how much you think they've told you, there's always something they are hiding. Something they don't want to tell you because they are afraid of what you'll say, or do or think.. or whatever.
I guess I do that sometimes. You know, hide stuff. I don't really know what to think about things anymore. It's all so different now, there's so much .. mess.. so much.. confusion. I guess on one hand I'm glad everything has taken a turn, on the other I wish that I could still say I had reason. Had purpose. Had.. anything.
You know how sometimes you think things are going and then you realize they aren't. It's kinda like that now. I think, on one hand that I have .. something, while I really just don't. I don't talk, I don't listen, I just am. *shrugs* Who knows? Not me!
do do duuuu. Sing a song and it all goes away. Poof. Like magic ya know?
I want it to all go away sometimes. Of course on other times.. i don't. I'm fairly happy now. I'm a happy kid. Do good things, get goodish grades, think about doing things like road trips and trips to other countries. I guess I really need to start making some decisions as to where I want to be five years from now. Two months from now.. any time from now. Gatta think ahead. Be a smart kid. Be a good kid. Be a decisive kid. Kid kid kid. That's what I still am.