2004-11-23 - 1:06 a.m.
Funny thing. I've been tooooo.. bleck lately, so I'm going to go back to my old way of writing. Details suck and nobody cares anyways. So this is for my pleasure.
I came to a conclusion today. A sucky one, but one none the less. I waste too much time thinking about the past and need to focus more on the future. If I kept my head where it needs to be then it wouldn't matter what happened yesterday or last week or even an hour ago. All I have to worry about is what is to come next. Instead of saying stupid things like, "she got hurt" I can think "she'll get better." or .. something like that. It made sense in my head but seems to be more scrambled here.
I've got a lot to think about if i'm going to start thinking about the future instead of the past. I need to start working harder on homework and all my other work. OH.. OH OH OH!!! Ok, off topic but completely relevent, I got a 2.9 on a chem lab today! Eight fucking pages long and I only got a 2.9 because I forgot the fucking units. He said if I would have put them in it would have been a 3.2!! Can you fucking believe that shit?? Grrrr!!!!
*ahem* Back to the subject at hand.. Which I have completely forgotten.
Moving on.
I've had no revelation, or epiphemy or any other self realization thingy you can have at sixteen, but I did decide that I can't afford to fuck up ANYMORE , so I won't. Or at least, I'll try harder not to. I need better grades, better morals, cleaner room.. yes yes.. It'll all come together my friend, it'll all come together.
Am I boring you guys yet? I kinda think I am. I'm boring myself. Heh, I do that alot though so it's not saying much. Ahhhh well.
That's all I got.