2004-12-12 - 2:29 p.m.
Ever feel bad about giving someone the half truth about who you are? I mean, you think about telling them about you and about your life, but then your scared they'll disown you or something?
How would you evevn start out telling someone about your self.. as a whole. I mean How could you touch ever detail about how you feel without making it seem too tragic or too pathetic?
When you cant sit and have a conversation with soemjome, with their face I mean, then I guess they'll never reallyu know what you're like. You'll never really know what they are like.
It's only when you sit and talk with someone that you are able to express wholley and honestly who you are and what you're about. AND THAT'S ONLY IF YOU KNOW!'
How do you tell someone what you're all about if you dont' eeven know? If you're still tyring to figure out what your live for, what makes you tick, how do you know that you are actually telling them all of it.
FUCK!
People are so goddamn confusing. There is one person in particular who I think i woudl bitch at if I could. Of course, I woudlnt' bitch at him alone, she'd need to be there too. So he knew .. all of it. So he knew we all knew he was a peice of shi tand should burn in hell.
I was talking to someone the other day about these things. These online journal things. She said never ahd any idea who I was talking about. Do you think you do right now? Not right now, but before? How can you be sure?
I love not using names. It confuses me sometimes too. LIke when I read over old entries and try to pick up on what I was feeling when I wrote whichever entry. LOL. It's cool. I confuse myself and I right it to straighten out my thoughts.
heh, who knows. I'm going to go get ready for work now. Just felt like venting a bit. PUT ON A HAPPY FACE!
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