UNTITLED.
2004-12-15 - 8:00 p.m.

I feel so fucking bad. I can't decide what to do. I'm being torn at bit by bit by so many different people. So many people want me to help them or do something for them or be around them, but I can't. I can't stand being there for anyone. I'm a selfish bitch. There's nothing wrong with that. She was a selfish bitch. Maybe i really do take after her. Maybe I really am exactly what everybody thought I was going to be. That seems so freaking likely. And what is with him? Why is he playing with my head so much? What about me? Doesn't he think i have a life? That I can't sit around and wait for him? That I haven't sat around and waited for him? It's been what.. a month.. three weeks? How long? Grr. I don't even know what to do anymore? I don't want to hurt anybody, yet I don't want to be hurt either. Maybe that's why I avoid so many relationships. Maybe that's why I run from them. Ok.. I take that back. That is why I run from them. No maybe needed.

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