2005-02-01 - 9:12 p.m.
.. Wow. I've never had to be afriad of what I write down before. See, I've got to be uber careful now.. with what I write, what I say. I know that people watch what I do now. I don't really have anywhere else. Heh. That's kinda funny, cause .. on one hand it's my own damn fault.. On the other.. tis not like it wouldn't have happened anyways.
I made a deal today. . . Well.. to him a deal. To me a promise. I'm done. I'm turning into exactly what I hate. So I quit. I'm not going to be like that because.. I don't want to be. SO here it is. My written confession. I quit.
As for you. I know you're probably confused as hell. If your reading this.. I don't know if that was a one time thing .. or what. BUT either way. I'm sorry. I .. I put you through a lot of shit, and for you to just sit back and take it and apologize and.. all of it. Just.. Thank you. I love knowing that you are there in case I fall. Even if you don't catch me.. the mere thought that I pass you on the way down is good enough.
It's been one hell of a day. I've gone from more lows to highs and highs to lows than you could even guess. I've gotten head rush from the speed at which I go from one extreme to the other today. MOre so than usual. I don't know what it is.. honestly.
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