2005-02-03 - 12:15 a.m.
I'm tired as hell right now. It's crazy beyond all reason. I think all the sleep I didn't get last year and this summer and the beginning of this year is catching up and trampling me. I feel so exhausted lately. Just flat out exhausted. Heh.
I talked to Brandy today about.. things. It was crazy. In the three years.. nobody has noticed.. randomly she walkes up to me and knows. Just.. knows. Like that. Poof. Heh. I've seriously got to go to bed. Just wanted to take a minute to stop by, read things, catch up. Fill you in on the crazy workings of my head.
See I realize now that I was.. well.. nothing. See it doesn't matter because things are how they are supposed to be. But honestly. . . Nothing. Not something or someone. It was all just a big.. mistake. I'm sure you'd agree .. if you knew. I'm sure you'd see the things I missed. The things which should have been evident from the get go. You'd laugh and think "Wow, she really is as ditzy as she acts." Then walk away because the shame of being in the presence of someone so dence is so strong.
Oh well. Thing worked out. Things are good. I'm.. feeling.. so good lately. Which apparently no one can see.. I've had four people today alone ask me If i'm doing ok. "You look depressed" "You look sad." "You look like something is bothering you." "You're hair is funny colors." God that's horrible. Why do people point out the obvious. Not the part about being all sad and shit, cause i'm not.. the part about my hair. I mean .. seriously.. do they not think I look in a mirror? Do they not think I see myself everyday before I leave the house? I was thinking of redying it tonight. Didn't happen. . . Maybe tomorrow. For now.. SLEEP IS GOOD.
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