2005-02-14 - 9:55 p.m.
With age.. comes responsibility.
Or so they say. I'm not so sure yet. It having been only one day.. I don't feel much different. I think the shiney silver thing in my driveway is the only thing that makes me feel different. Heh. I guess that's how it is every year though right? You don't feel any different? I guess it has something to do with the psychological idea you get when your little. LIke there's some magical "Poof" that makes you feel just a tid bit older.
I guess that age feelign doesn't hit until halfway through the year when you realize how different things are. Cause they really are.. I mean.. look at today compaired to last year. Last year I wasn't sure If i'd ever be happy. LOL Now I"m bouncing off walls every five seconds.
I suppose everybody goes through that phase at least once. That.. "Things will never work out" phase.. The "I'm dark and no one knows why" phase. I guess some people never grow out of it. Some go on .. thinking they have it so bad off. thinking no one .. nothing.. can ever make it better. But the truth is.. there is someone to make it better. I know this sounds hallmarky and .. untrue and.. fake .. but seriously. The one person who can make things better.. Is you. Is believing you aren't at rock bottom. Believing there's more to life than what you see before you.
And there is. If you make it. At least.. that's how I feel now. . . Sitting in my little kitchen chair staring out my window.. Things have gone up. Things will keep going up .. and I like that knowledge. That feeling of comfort. Now i've got to jet cause I'm supposed to be cleaning.. Just a few.. words of wisdom.. or.. as my grandma would call them..