2005-03-08 - 11:10 p.m.
Blah blah blah. Things have been pretty good lately. Calm, easy, happy. It's neat.
I had a pretty wild weekend last weekend. Hung out with some crazy kids on thursday night, spent friday night driving people around and listening to tipsy people giggle at me, spent saturday fourwheeling for the first time (it was fucking awesome!) and hanging with that boy, and spent sunday working.... of course I worked all weekend too. Heh. Work is great. I love it. It shall never get old. Ever.
I've been staying out a bit late each night to hang with chris. We cruise around and listen to music, talk about shit, just.. spend time together. He's heading back to jail thursday. For ten days. Ten days minimum. He's convinced that that is how long it'll be. . . Judge gave him 15 ... so we'll see. He also talked about actually joining. Like.. seriously going. I mean... he's mentioned it a couple times, but .. ya know how he is.. Mr I'm going to say i'm going to do something then never actually do it. He hasn't gotten drunk in so long.. and he hasn't smoked in a while either. It makes me so fucking happy. LOL you have... NOOO idea. I mean.. I can handle drinking.. just not.. the getting smashed part. The.. waisting away an entire evening just fucking himself over by hitting cars and yelling a lot.
He's saying when he gets out he's going to get an apartment... with joe. Heh. We'll see how it goes I suppose. He says a lot of things. Who knows what he really means. I suppose I can't count too much on anything that comes out of his mouth... but I can dream..
Heh.. dreams.. yeah i've had a few fucked up ones of those. It's pretty bad. I told him and he asked me if i was hinting. I wanted to hit him right then. . . but I didn't . . . cause I suppose it could have sounded that way... Seriously.. that would be scarey as hell. I guess I'm a tad curious at how you could even think about spending so much time with just one person. There are so many people out there to meet and talk to and all that stuff... how could you chose just one.
I don't mean that in the really slutty way it sounds... I mean it in the..sorta helpless teenager way that says.. i really have no idea what's going on. ---- Either way. I was very clear that if he were to ever ask me that question... i'd have to kill him. LOL yeah. only i said it a lot less funny nad a lot less nice.
I guess the weirdest part about all this is... I guess... I always saw myself with sam. LIke... marraige and shit... I could have sworn that I'd want to be with him.... forever.