2005-03-15 - 11:41 p.m.
I know I know, it seems like I only write when I've reached my super highs, or my super lows.... it's just there is so much going on now a days that it's hard to keep track of how often I write anymore.
Things have just... gone smoothly. He's still not in jail, which is where he's supposed to be, but maybe that's ok. I guess he was really really really jealous today. Luke came in, see luke and I have a bit of history, we both just kinda left things hanging a while back and ... I dunno, anywho he came into the theatre today and it was the second time i've seen him in like.. six months and we were laughing and talking and having fun and stuff and i'd noticed that chris kinda just kept disappearing... I guess it's up to him whether he wants to be around or what not... I dunno I try not to be all.. icky controlling girlfriend and what not... Anywho so we're chillin and chris finally comes and stands at the end of the counter *which for those of you who don't know means: come here so i can kiss/say something to/annoy/anything else i can think up to you* and he's just kinda chillin. AFter a few pokes and prods and 'Come on tell me what's wrongs' he finally comes out with "I fuckin hate that kid." and goes into this long story of samantha and blah blah blah. Needless to say he wasn't happy about my being buddy buddy with luke.
I supppose that it's ok.. I don't like the fact that he's buddy buddy with lillian. Even if she is with cody... I just.. *shiver* I dunno something about her makes me uneasy. Her and samantha really urk me. Samantha... grrr.. she's kinda bitchy to me now. She used to at least acknowledge my exhistance... but now.. chhh.. whatever. Grr. Yeah. Anywho... jealousy. it sucks, but it lets you know they care.
Let's see... what else have I got... oohh.. we keep having these really good conversations.. it's soo cool and feels so nice when we are able to acctually connect and have a long conversation about just.. things that are important to us. I told him about my dreams... nobody else knows about them... Nobody. It's kinda weird to have him know. He looked at me really bad... like i'd said something wrong.
Anywho, sleep is catching up with me.. Or.. should I say not sleep.. cause i'm back to my old schedule of staying up till the ass crack of dawn having nothing to do... *sigh* who knows.
Old habits won't die... it's hard. Anywho Gunna jettt......