2005-03-26 - 2:16 a.m.
Back back back back mine mine mine mine. Ok today was the first day of spring break of been of sound mind and body and it was really shitty up until midnight ish.. Actually.. that's not true. A lot happened today. A lot of really really really good things.
First: Coleman and stephaine got married today. It was so freaking awesome. I don't know if i wrote about Veronica and walts wedding or not, but this was different. I mean they were both amazing and surprising and breathtaking, but theres something about seeing someone your age seeing two someones your age standing next to eachother confessing love in front of everone. Love forever. Not love for now. It was so freaking cool.
Second: I got an awesome message on the sidewalk from Jean and Keagen. I don't know if you know where I live, but anywho it started at totem square and followed the left hand of the street all the way to the theatre with little messages like "Tia this way" and arrows telling me where to go. There was one that came to a cross in the street and it was like "Watch out for cars." then when you got on the other side it was all "Did you hold someone's hand?" It was so freaking cute. By the time I got to the theatre There was this awesome flower drawing and a little message about how it was so long and so far away but I made it the whoooole way. I loved it. So cute.
Third, and finally, Chris is out of fucking Jail. I got to hold him and just.. be with him tonight and it felt so fucking good. God I know it was only ten fucking days but it was so goddamn hard. I didn't realize how much of my life he made up until he wasn't really around to be in it. He's always there. Having him gone was .... i suppose in the corny sappy way of saying it, Like part of me was missing. Part of my day. My everyday schedule that keeps me going. There was just this big empty void... I don't even know... I'm just really fucking glad its gone.
There's only one downside to the fact that he was gone. He has to have a shit load of community service hours in by tuesday... or he's going back for fourty days. Not four.. not ten.. Fourty. Two months. That'll be two months of our relationship that we won't be together. Two months of that stupid void that won't go away. I don't want that. At all. I want him here with me... or.. at least somewhere where I can know he's safe. Not that... ya know jail means he won't be safe and shit.. but.. goddamnit it's jail. It's not completely illogical for me to not want my boyfriend in jail is it? *sigh*
Either way, he's not there now. He's with me. He's close enough where I can see him.. and not have a glass wall between us... or talking through a phone. ... It's nice. SO fucking nice.