2005-04-07 - 11:28 p.m.
Happy. Today was a happy day. No bullshit. Well... there was some bullshit, and I think I lost one of my old really good friends, but it's his choice. If he's done with me, I'm done with him. I hope he never asks me to talk to him about anything ever again, cause i won't know what to say. He really pissed me off. And dissapointed me. He had made me believe he would always be there. Bam. Guess not. Fuck you adam. Fuck you.
Anywho. On a happy note: Chris was out last night at Jeans moms house while jean and Jen and a couple other people were all drinking. He didn't. He didn't drink. He called me up at three thirty in the morning telling me how hard it was and how badly he wanted to, but he didn't. For me. Because he doesn't want to hurt me. Fuck. Somewhere I did something right. Somewhere I made some sort of a difference. SOmewhere along the line I made him see that I really do care about him, and even if I am the only one, I will ALWAYS care about him. And it helped. For god's sake, it helped.
I got into it with Jean. Well, she got into it with me actually. I don't even know what to say about that, except I would never talk shit about somebody behind their back if i couldn't do it to their front as well, and I would certainly never talk shit about jean. I said simply: "I don't like it when he drinks with her." The end. No shit. Just that. And I don't. I don't have to. I'm entitled to the way I feel. As a good friend of mine and I have discovered, He's a follower. If they do it he'll do it just to prove he's still cool. But that's k. Cause I love him.
Heh. Coming up on sunday it will have been four months. Four long good months. I just hope we can keep it together forever.
Anyways, Things are good. Mc is awesome and I'm so glad she enjoys it here. I don't know what I would do if she hated my home or anything about alaska. I'd feel awfull. Megn and I need to get our cool matching bags for france. I NEED TO CALL PEOPLE. LOL eventually
Gah. Anywho. Sleep is good and makes you on less crack. Night all.
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