2005-09-14 - 2:02 a.m.
Well if I thought I was confused with what I wanted before, now I'm just royally fucked. I think i've seriously jepordized a good thing, but then again... well fuck. I suppose I'll just be confused for a while until i figure things out.
I've got so much shit to do at this point. So much I have to catch up with, so much I need to figure out, need to decide. I remember back in the old days when the only problems I had were with my happiness, I had no idea what made me happy, what made me sad, you know.. that whole jazz...
No wi'm just completely lost as to what it is I'm not okay with. I knwo what feels right, I know what feels familiar... All of it. I just don't know exactly what it is I want. Anyways, it's really fucking late and i want to go to bed, sleep is something I'm not getting much of lately. and that I know I want.